foxfire08

Have had nothing but BAD LUCK for awhile.  Me and Eric fight like crazy, my daughter passed away, works getting stressful, I cry...more than my body can...Im drained. But within all of the madness...there was hope. For the past week or so I have had the feelings I have always had when I was PREGNANT...so I became exsited of the thought of finally holding my own baby again...I smiled all day and even caught myself laughing...TRUELY LAUGHING, the kind where your checks hurt and you have a smile LONG after its all over. I got home and the first thing I did was take that TEST to the bathroom. And watched closely as the symbols showed up like gold. As I watched I thought of Rayne and what I would name a girl again...Jadea Rayne Hadley...after her big sister...and as I thought of all those WONDERFUL ideas of life, it showed up....NEGATIVE...and my golden hopes turned to sad dreams.